The song in my heart

It is amazing how God will use a song to speak to a heart. My manumanum and I use the saying "A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words". Sunday was such a day.

When I am asked to sing, usually a song will pop into my head within moments of being asked and I usually find that the song is exactly the song that God has intended to be used for that service. Sometimes, being human, and going through things, sometimes the song is even meant for me and sometimes I fight the song.

I remember one particular instance when I was asked to sing and a certain song came into my head. I knew the song, knew that it was meant for me and refused to sing it. After all, maybe it was my "carnal" nature that was "picking" the song. I decided that I would sing another song...just as nice...but not what God wanted. I asked my sister-in-law if she would help me with the song because she usually sings it with me. I photocopied the song and had it ready for my brother-in-law to use when he played. I was getting away with it...I thought. But God knew and he was refusing to let me have my way. Just before I went up to sing, my father turned around to me and asked me if I was singing...I said yes and then he asked me to sing "that" song. I knew then that there was no running from God. I sang it, humble and broken.

I was asked to sing last night earlier in the day. No song really "came" to me. There was a new one that I wanted to try...but that didn't work out. After choir practice...I stayed at the keyboard and went through my two song books...nothing still. I went into the prayer room and before I left, I turned to Manumanum and said....I have to sing tonight and I don't have a song on my heart.

Went back to my seat and Manumanum sat with me. I opened my book and picked out a couple of songs and then showed them both to her during the song service..and said..."OK...which one?" Later she would tell me that there was an audible voice in her ear that said..."tell her that one"!.... When I got up to sing, I made it through the song and inside myself...I wanted to sing the first verse again...it was the least difficult...but when my fingers went up...it was #2 verse that I picked. The verse went like this.... "Oft times satan will whisper that there's no use to try. For there's no end to sorrow, there's no hope in the by-and by. But I know Jesus is with me and tomorrow I will rise, where the storms never darken the sky."

That verse was meant for me. The song was meant for me. The storms have been blinding and difficult. Feelings of giving up and "it doesn't matter anymore" have prevailed. But it is time to realize that the storms are only for a season and someday the Storms will never darken the sky.

My manumanum says that God knew the song of my heart and told her to remind me! Thanks Manumanum for being used of God!